I was broken ever since dad passed away, i loved him with all my heart and he was there for me when i did wrong, he forgave me. Liam isn’t the only one that is hurting, thats why i had to walk away from my sister and mom. They wouldn’t understand, i found a bar somewhere in town and i ordered a few drinks with the money i had saved. I got pretty Tipsy, not to much to pass out. Iv’e gotten drunk before, to where i almost fought some dude. Dad had to come pick me up, he was the only one i trusted so i had called him. That next morning was when he gave me a talk, he told me to love others, to forgive and to do good for myself even if i was hurting. I try to do that, but I’m not like him And I will never be like him. I wish i was more like him, he was smart, loving and always put others before him.I kept on drinking until i knew i had to stop, it had a funny name to which i couldn’t stop laughing for awhile. I think the drink was called zing zang tang walla balla bing bang, i don’t know i can’t stop thinking about dad. I then realized i couldn’t walk home myself, i would get in so much trouble if the police saw me the way i was. In a new town, getting in trouble on my first day of moving wasn’t good idea.
So then i asked the bartender that was leaving, if he could just take me home because i wasn’t capable to go myself. He said sure and asked where i lived, i told him very cautiously and got in his car. I saw piper, she was so pissed you should see her veins and they were about to exploded. She was going to lecture me about drinking and having a stranger take me home. blah blah blah!
I was right
Piper: “You know i can smell your gross alcoholic breath miles away, Mom needs us right now and-”
Emilee: “And what? We have to be tough right?, why?!?! Im hurting too. I can’t help that i miss dad, so can you please stop getting mad at me for being in emotional pain”
Piper: “Dad always saw the best in you, I know he wouldn’t want you to be like this. He would have wanted you to do good and to help mom with Liam. Can you try and i will try to not be so hard on you, i just need you to try.”
Emilee: “What do you know about dad? You were never close to him, you don’t care about him at all. Your just a mistake!”
Piper: “I know a lot about dad then you ever will, Im close to dad and I’m not a mistake. It was a mistake that dad always forgiving you when you didn’t deserve it, your a soiled rotten brat.”
I can’t believe it, piper, my sister spoke her mind. Thats new, i wonder what else was new? then dad and her, how close were they really that i didn’t know of?
……Mom: “Oh god emilee come here please we need to talk”
Emilee: “yes mom…”
Mom: “I know your hurting, I’m sorry. I should’ve thought about y’all feelings first, I’m not like your dad. So take your time, to heal and to try to find yourself. i love you and I’m sorry for hurting you”
I just gave mom a hug, didn’t say anything. Just hugged her, I was very thankful that mom would give me time to mourn. I just didn’t know how to tell her, all i could think about is to hug her. Then Mom tells me and piper to go to a grill, to cook something. Oh dear!